Friday, April 30, 2010

"Anyone who can bow down to God, can stand up to anything"





I love this quote!
=)

-AkMaR-
 http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Friday 30th April 2010
11.17pm
"Just if that did not happen, i could have............"


"If I did not................ I might have..............."


"Just if........................"


I think most of us might have said or at least thought of these sentences at any part of our life.
Or worse, some of us might still think this and kept in heart for years, regretting of something that had happened years ago.


I read that Muslims are not supposed to say "just if i hadn't done this etc etc" when something goes wrong, because everything that happened are the work of God, and there is no way we could have changed it. I'm sorry but I only know that this is from a hadith, a Sahih Muslim.


I had, thought of these sentences before.
But not for long because I clearly know that if that did not happen, other things might have happened, and whatever I am facing now will not happen.
So for me, anyone who hold on to the sentence is actually someone who DOES NOT appreciate what he/she is having in his/her life now.


If whatever it is that that person regret happened did not happen, he/she will not have what he/she has in his life now.


              Z lost his watch in a camping he went with friends last semester holiday. He went to search for the watch with his friends and they spent 1 hour looking for it all around, under the tent, behind the trees, beside the river, behind the toilet, basically everywhere. But they couldn't find it. 


            Z regretted bringing that watch to the camping, his mother had even reminded him not to bring it there because he was a very careless boy. Z brought it because he wanted to show his friends his new watch. Now, Z is already at home, telling his mother that he lost the watch. He was scolded. 


          Z regretted so much that he wished he could have turned back the time so that he will not bring that watch, or leave that watch unattended during the camp. He is willing to exchange almost anything he has to turn the time back. 


         Two years passed, Z still cannot forget the watch and he still regrets bringing the watch to the camping. He bought a new watch but, he still long for the old watch.


In my honest opinion, Z shouldn't have regretted, things happened, the damage is done. 
If he had not lose his watch at that time, he would not have searched for the watch for an hour with his friends. The watch-hunt miraculously strengthened their friendship and they are the best friends Z can ever bargain for. 


Or, if he had not lose the watch, Z would not have learnt from his mistake not to leave his belongings unattended. He might leave even more valuable things unattended, say his wallet or mobile phone.


Had Z not lose the watch, something else might had happened to him. They will not be an hour late, but they might have got involved with an accident on their way back home. They escaped that accident because they were an hour late, searching for the watch.


Had Z not lose the watch, his mother would not have scolded him. By scolding him, his mother might had avoided some other bad things in her life. His mother might be tired after scolding him and decided to rest at home when initially she planned to go to the market. Maybe on that day, the meat sold in the market were infected meat. People eating that meat were sent to the hospital for food poisoning. Seeing him scolded, his siblings knew and learnt that they should listen when their mum asked them not to bring valuables to camping. 


So many things happened just because of ONE thing, be it a good or a bad thing.
And ALL these had been planned by Him. Nothing can change His law, His plan. Nothing can challenge His power.


And by regretting his action bringing the watch to the camping, Z is not being appreciative. 
He does not appreciate the fact that he is still alive when he could have been killed in the accident he missed by being an hour late. He does not appreciate the fact that his siblings have became one step wiser, learning from his mistake instead of making their own. He does not appreciate the friendship he has now with his friends, which was greatly strengthened by the watch-hunting process.
He also does not appreciate the fact that his mother is still alive and well, for avoiding something bad in her life, had she not spent time scolding him 2 years back.


I know this example may sound ridiculous but, it applies, the concept is still there.
Would you want to turn your time back, change some things and risk everything you have now? 




Just if my mum did not meet my dad, this post will not be here.
And Obama might not even be the president of US!
Who knows, a lot of things happened as a consequence of my parents' meeting.
It's not impossible isn't it?
=)

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

30th April 2010
5.23pm
I fell sick last Saturday.
Couldn't get up from bed for two days.
Spent the weekend on bed.

Went to clinic on Monday, blood count was normal.

Went to PBL on Tuesday morning, periodic cough attacks, I gotta run out of the room in the middle of discussion a few times, gasping for air.
Wondering how to survive two hours in the lecture theatre, fairly sure the periodic unstoppable cough will be attacking and batchmates' attention will be disturbed by my endless periodic cough.
Thought of hanging out with Dina and Sarah at Sunway. Plan didnt work out.
Light headedness in the afternoon, went back home.
Slept the whole evening.
Study a bit at night.

Wednesday, still coughing badly...
Need to run to the toilet few times, stomach content banging to get out, but through the wrong direction.
In desperate need of a bronchodilator.
Did not go for lecture.
Self study at home, blogged and fb-ed (wasting time basically).

Thursday, got up late.
Did not go for lecture too.
Coughing better than Wednesday but still need to run to the toilet every now and then.
Frequency of periodic cough decreases, severity of each attack is almost the same.

And now, 6 minutes before Friday.

So basically, i spent most of my weekdays this week at home.
I didn't attend any of the lectures this week and there is no lecture tomorrow on Friday.
I officially skipped (with a good reason) the whole week's lecture.
Urrgghh..

But, i managed to write SIX blog posts in a week, when before this it might take me three weeks to write one post.
I managed to clean up my work station at home.
I spent more time at home.
I saved a lot on eating my meals in IMU.
I think I gained weight.

I managed to calm myself down.
I managed to watch some news.
I don't have to spend time on driving.

I am still coughing.

I am sleepy.

I wanna sleep. Goodnight.

It's 12.01am now.
It's already Friday!
=)

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

12.01am
Friday 30th April 2010

Wednesday, April 28, 2010


I am always amazed (but at times, disgusted) by the influential power the media has.
Whoever controls the media, is indirectly controlling the world, having the influence to lead the public into thinking the way they want the public thinking, or letting the public know only what they want the public know, hiding some ugly truth behind their reports.

I'm not planning to talk much about the influence of the media, the previous paragraph is only the intro to my post.

I always laughed (but most of the time, disgusted too) at the politics in Malaysia now. Politicians switching parties like changing clothes, accusations of one side to another, back-stabbing etc (oopss.. shdn't be saying a lot on this, i dont really know what happens, again i'm only informed by the media and comprehended the info using my own shallow mind)

Often, during the evening news, we'll be exposed to a lot of the "goodness" of the government and the "badness" and "inefficiency" of the opposition.
The media is bound to praise the government and downgrade the opposition, that is a known fact.
The newsreaders are bound to say sentences like, "keprihatinan kerajaan" or "kelemahan pihak pembangkang" or "kewibawaan pemimpin BN" etc etc...
I am not saying the news are totally wrong but, I believe we must have our own "filter" and judgement to differentiate the truth, the lies and the make-ups.

The oppositions have their own media as well, undeniably.
And it is undeniable that their media will potray their "goodness" and the "badness" and "corruption" of the government.
Again, there must always be personal filter to prevent us from being misled.

Anyhow, let's imagine for a while...
Imagine...just imagine that in the next General Election, the opposition wins and they rule Malaysia. Just imagine...


Now, what will the newsreaders read?
"BN yang masih tidak mahu mengaku kekalahan"
"Kerajaan baru yang tidak melupakan kepentingan rakyat"

etc etc...

What do you think?
Hahahahaha...

p/s: I'm not standing on any site of the fence. I'm underage and still cannot vote. Peace!


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

8.53pm
April 28, 2010 0 Comments
If I study at home,

  1. I'll be very much attached to the internet in front of me
  2. I'll be going up and down the stairs as an excuse of relieving my body of ache as a result of sitting too much.
  3. I'll be heading to the kitchen every now and then, open the fridge and have a bite or two on whatever edible in the fridge. And my aunt had just came back from Australia, she brought lots of chocs back. Arrghh...
  4. I'll be going to the mirror and start brushing my hair and pin here and there and then get back to my desk.
  5. I'll be going into my room, look at my bed longingly and decided not to sleep.
  6. I'll be pitying myself for having to study and decided to sleep on the couch, putting my alarm 30minutes later. And wakes up 1 hour later.
  7. I'll get frustrated when I dont have enough reference book and hoped I can have a med library at home.

Conclusion: Home Sweet Home


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com
Sometimes we need to pay for the mistakes we made in life.

Sometimes we get off it, and continue with our life. It happened to me a lot of times before.


Sometimes we gotta pay for the mistake we made long long time ago, which we thought we got it off.


Sometimes we thought we're paying for a mistake which we conveniently convinced ourselves we did when actually we didnt.


And sometimes, we pay for mistakes that other people did.


Sometimes, just sometimes, we feel so blessed that we made a mistake and now paying for it.


But most of the time, we blamed other people for the mistake we made without knowing we made the mistake. And when we gotta pay for it, we tell ourselves that we're paying for other people's mistake. 


Complex enough?
This post is generated out of boredom (a BIG FAT lie). It is also generated because i am too tired to study, and is already drained.

This post came out of nowhere when i decided to complicate my mind which is already very complicated now. And I actually wrote this post on Tuesday 27th April 2010 at 7.45pm. It couldnt be published, I've no idea why. Maybe it's because of the coding.

p/s: To whoever it may concern, i am trying and will do my very best to make things better but i will desperately need cooperation. It takes two to tango... =)



-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I am often asked these Qs:

"How are your studies?"


"How is your exam?"


"When is your exam?"

OR WORSE STILL,

"Do you think you can make it for your exam?"

How am i supposed to answer?

Even if i answered, "No, i dont think i can make it for the coming exam. I still have a lot to study"

Will that make any difference?
The questioner wont be able to do anything also (forget the grammar here)
Duh!

p/s: I'm coughing really badly now, how to stand two hours in lecture later? With the air cond, i'm sure i'l be coughing my heart out and make the hall noisy. Haiz... And PBL later some more, in a small closed room...! Double haiz...


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Monday, April 26, 2010

When i grow big *grin*, i want to be a good person.
A good slave to my Creator, a good daughter to my parents, a good sister to my siblings and cousins, a good friend to my friends and I want to big a good doctor. =)

I want to have a BIG house.
A house with my own library, a collection of my books since I was small.
A well-lit comfy house.
-AkMaR- http://akmarr90.blogspot.com
I dislike falling sick. Other than getting all the attention from family members, there is nothing else to be looked forward to in falling ill. Work cannot be done, study cannot be completed, even staring into the monitor gets my eyes go blink blink.

-AkMaR- http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Friday, April 23, 2010

I made a new discovery (I hope to win a Nobel Prize with this discovery... =D ) Ok, that joke is lame, i know.
Anyway, i found out that

Sore throat leads to increased frequency of visits to the toilet.
How? Sore throat leads to cough, leads to increased water intake, leads to increased blood volume leads to decreased water retention leads to increased urine output leads to increased toilet visit frequency.

L.A.M.E!!!


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com
~DO NOT THINK OF A PURPLE ELEPHANT!!!
~ ~ ~ ~  ~








 
Ok now, frankly answer me, what had u just did?
Did u or did u not, have an image of a purple elephant in ur mind for a split second just now?
Despite the fact that the instruction given was NOT TO THINK of a purple elephant?
If u said yes, continue reading.
If u said no, stop reading and go read other blog. But if u wanna continue reading despite the "NO" u've just answered, carry on..

Someone told me before, the human mind could not register negative words like "no", "never", "don't" etc..
That explained why the more we ask a child not to do it, the more he/she wants to do it.
I once told my nephew, "Do not throw that watch onto the floor, it's not mine, it's gonna break". And the next thing i know, the watch hit the wall and dropped on the floor.

Everyday, news of accidents will be on the newspapers and news.
Everyday people die on roads, and some of their stories were publicised, to create awareness.
But, had any of these newspapers reported just how many thousands and millions of people arrived their destinations safely?
Why must only the bad things be reported? What about the good things?

Same goes to the divorce stories of celebrities.
When any of the stars get divorced, the whole world know.
There are many other stars living happily with their couple, why arent the tabloids reporting this?

Polygamy marriage that failed; they are all publicised, just to make the world think that polygamy is a very bad thing. But just how many CORRECTLY DONE polygamy marriages (note my hightlight) succeeded and all the wives live happily? These stories are not publicised, because they are not juicy enough.

When we're in trouble, we blame other people for not being there for us.





-AkMaR- http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Assalammualaikum.
I know this is a terribly late post but I STUBBORNLY STILL WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT.
Hahahaha...

Anyway, IMU Muslim Society in collaboration with the Student Rep Council and Stdnt Service if i'm not mistaken, held an Amazing Craze on 27th March 2010. The game is a mimick of the Amazing Race but it's IMU edition and it's held in conjunction with the Earth Week. Each team consists of only two members and I got my husband to be my partner!! Yeay...!! The first prize was 2 tickets to Langkawi, 2nd was two tickets to Genting Highland and 3rd was two tickets to Sunway Lagoon. Me and my husband aimed the Sunway ticket bcos it's been a long time since we've been there, and we've never been there together.

And so, few weeks before the game, we started jogging! Uh wow.. I've nvr jog in the park near IMU before but i jogged bcos we wanted the Sunway ticket. We jogged for about 2-3 evenings per week. Running up the Bukit Komanwel made me realise that my stamina is very very low. I dared not stop jogging bcos I know perfectly well, once i stop i wont be able to start again. I'd better jog until i really cant move my leg anymore.

The game will take place in Kuala Lumpur city, and we weren't allowed to use our own transport. We need to use public transport and i'm because both me and my husband are from KL and we are very quite   familiar with public transport in KL. That gave us a plus mark.

Both of us also can communicate well, and will not quarrel with each other and so, i trust or at least hoped that we won't start to fight when we're under the pressure to win. That will make things turn bad for us.

I really anticipated the game...............
And this part of the story ends here.
Hahahahaha....
I'll continue writing some other time. Till then, take care!

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com